Currently, I’m seeing red. Not a bright red either, it’s very crimson red. I’m getting irritated by the smallest of things. It is SICKENING that despite the fact I have the skills and experience, nobody is willing to give me a chance and hire me. This is taking a substantial toll on me because it is requiring every ounce of my being to not… go… off. To put it lightly, my temper is on the edge.
Things are just getting worse. Not only am I running low on funds thanks to some unexpected and poorly timed bills, but not able to get a job is affecting my health.
To top it all off, she’s not going to be coming back to the US any time soon. Also, it was decided (on her part) to not return to the farm thanks to some actions of one woman she worked along with. This, coupled with my contingency to become depressed does not help.
What else can I do? Does anyone have any other suggestions? I just keep getting walked all over. I can’t win for losing anymore.